2003-07-25
10:01 p.m.

This is why I shouldn't be allowed to watch such channels as The Life Network or TLC. I am much to emotional to handle some of their shows. Those stations should be deleted off my tv.

I especially shouldn't be allowed to watch them when I am in certian moods as I am tonight.

All I wanted tonight was to be in someones arms. All nice & comfy in bed. You know, one of those nights that are spent in silence watching movies or tv until all hours in the morning.

Seeing as I was alone I decided to spend my night in my sweats & flick through the channels. I fliped past Kink, EC, While You Were Out & then I end up on the Life channel.

This show that was on was about someone who was about to propose to their girlfriend. Say Yes & Marry Me.

For those of you who know me well, you will all know that I am in love with the thought of marriage & everything leading up to the actual wedding day itself. So of course, this show is right up my ally.

I am fine through the whole show until they actually propose. Thats when I loose it totally.

I start to bawl my eyes out. I'm not talking tiny tears & little sniffles escaping every so often. I'm talking full out sobbing. Loud & annyoing sobbing.

I wished I was in their shoes so badly. Not because these guys had come up with crafty ways to pop the question because I don't want that at all. It was because I want to know that someone will love me that much. Someone will actually want to spend the rest of thier life with me. That they can & will accept all the annyoing little habbits I have & could possibly develop.

Fuck, I'm a mess. I'm still crying now. How pathetic is that? Crying over a stupid tv show. Crying over other couples.

Then again this doesn't surprise me.

I cry when Oprah does makeovers.

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